Why I hate my mentors.

This may sound shocking to hear, especially because I have 6 multi-million dollar mentors. I will explain why I hate them in a second.

You are the average of the 5 people you spend the most time with. If you surround yourself with bums, you will also be a bum.

If your friends smoke weed, chances are you will too.

Now, as an ambitious person who wants more out of life, there comes the point where we actively search out other ambitious people.

How awesome would it be to be around other people who are honest and work on themselves? There’s nothing better than that, right! No…

It’s actually a pretty painful experience…for the ego.

Yesterday I hung out with one of my mentors who is going through a challenging time in his life, and he asks me, “you ever gone to therapy?”

Me: No…I’ve done some work through psychedelics and sensory deprivation tanks.

Mentor: Reason I asked is because we have very similar pasts. Therapy has been very helpful for me to get over my childhood trauma.

Me: Hmm..I felt the need for it at one point but never really followed through with it.

Mentor: You should look into it. It could be helpful.

Why is he saying this to me?

You will typically be met by brute resistance by suggesting someone get their trauma handled.

Therapy was a common theme he kept bringing up to me yesterday. But why?

Does he see something I am not? Is there something about the way I behave that shows I need therapy? I don’t feel that I am a detriment to those around me… or maybe that’s what someone who IS a detriment to those around them would say…

Fuck.

I’ve been thinking about it ever since.

I do know one thing. I’ve been using the internet way too much.

I unfollowed everyone on Instagram, and I am currently setting my life up so I can retreat into a cave where nobody knows what I’m really up to.

I’ve been putting myself out there for some time, but I think it’s time to take a break for my mental health.

I am going to get back into running. I need to get back in touch with myself. Most of all, I need to take a step back and be grateful for everyone I have in my life.

I feel that social media has been having a serious effect on my ego and personality.

There’s only a handful of people that should have direct access to me.

Other than that, I don’t really want to talk to anybody.

I just want to work and be present with my life.

Back to the subject line… the reason why I said I hate my mentors is simply because they’re honest.

I hate them for a minute or two, and then I realize that they’re right. It’s not what I want to hear, but it’s what I need to hear.

It hurts my ego to hear that shit. It’s not pleasant. But who else would say that to me?

It’s true…I do need to take care of my mental state.

Nonetheless, I have crazy ambitious friends, and I am grateful they take stabs at my ego all the time. Without them, I would never grow.

I would never realize my full potential. They aren’t yes-men. And although it hurts in the present moment, they ultimately care about my results 10–15 years from now.

Growth often doesn’t feel good in the moment. But I’d rather not feel good in the moment than feel like I wasted my life 15 years from now.